| | There was a scene where i see all the ones enjoying around in a group where i can see happiness and joy in them which i couldn't have.I'm not jealous yet I'm happy for them.I's totally okay to me about one getting negative talking bad about me, they are teenagers, I've been there too... Let it go...
Sometimes i think maybe it's me who probably had too much expectation thus i don't have much effort to work out a good friendship with anyone as to be trusted also.
I'm not always emotional - no use to explain, you wouldn't understand either.I rather swallow my own sorrows.
I choose to be different, i know no one is perfect but I've always been trying to be perfect for you.I rather tolerate you because i know there is things inside myself that needs a whole lot of improvements.
I often do unreasonable things for a person just so that i can lie to myself saying thats my friend, i got a friend and i should do anything i can to impress/help.I was a fool and for those moment i thought it was worth it.
Sometimes my thoughts were afraid that i might drag you to insanity, frustration till you get fed up and tired of my behavior and left me one day...
I know probably I'm just too free thinking nonsense - after all who would be as deep as me?
Am i better off alone? I couldn't let you go even for the trade of my life...
The things you do often makes me things you're just too good to be so damn true and you were too good for me to have and i don't deserve you - you deserve someone better.
Thats all, I'm blank now.
I had the most special Christmas present for the first time in 18 years of my life. Thank you... and I LOVE YOU more then words can describe... |
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